Up and down

Seems like a constant battle these days, fighting the mood swings. Not that I don't understand why they appear, but as I have been so positive about my big jump, it worries me that baddies might win from the goodies.

So I keep on telling myself that self trust is the key to "win" this battle. Have been working really hard on the self trust front but I am definetely not there yet. HWSNBM gets in the way. And that hurts.

And then, all of the sudden, the phone rings and one of my friends is on the line. Hadn't spoken to her for ages but that happened before and never was a problem. Same for today, 2 hours later she was here and we had such a good time together, loads of hugs and sharing stories; she makes me feel so great, in whatever state I am in. Brietje, I love you! Thanks, again...

Nearly 5 o'clock now, so must make a move and get on "with it", whatever it is, that needs to be done. But I won't be able to do much, if I can't get HWSNBM out of the way a bit.
Only a bit though, wouldn't want to miss out completely!

J