The mind can see, As long as you'll be, For real with yourself, And you'll forever be...
How close the meaning of these words above come to me...
This is the real truth, written down in 4 simple lines; yet it may be the hardest lesson of life. If you think about it, it's easy to say you want to be honest and open to yourself but doing it as well... you will have to read between your own lines, dig deep, and be brave enough not to ignore your image of the mirror you're looking at: your soul, your heart. That is the real you.
To hold that image up high, show the world who you really are and with the courage to let see you accept yourself, the consequences and your responsibilities, with all your ups and downs, your positive sights and the negative ones, that will be the most rewarding, beautiful and enriching goal of life.
Keep on asking and it will be given to you; keep on seeking and you will find....
Funnily enough, this phrase is mentioned in the Bible, which, at first, is not such an obvious link with one of Lenny's most beautiful songs, Calling All Angels.
But to me it is. Confusing maybe? Result of over-enthusiastic creative thinking? When thinking with a narrow mind, it probably is. Not to judge the "narrow-minded", as I think that society these days tricks you that it is better to deal with that way. But drop the limits of your thinking-process, and see the beauty of a creative mind.
I was brought up in a religious family. Details are irrelevant here; but as with everything, it had an effect on how I developed in life. To cut a long story short, it left me somewhat disorientated, this combination of fear, hope and failing ability to "believe". The unknown makes it hard to believe, so the easy option seems to seek for prove. But when proven, believing is no use to you anymore.
Along the way, I took from it what I thought was important: the desire to know, to feel, to wish, to love, to be aware, and most of all, to learn that in all these matters there is no such thing as 'failure'. And lately I discovered that you don't need any prove on this, apart from your own.
Life can be so impossible to understand. The more you think about it, the more complicated it becomes. But when you use your creative mind, it all starts making sense. And complicated thoughts, feelings and questions turn into challenges.
Slowly but surely I have experienced the last few months, that there is so much more going on in life, than one would consider. There are so many more possibilities than ever imagined, if only you allow yourself to think without limits. And what would seem as an impossible task, you'll find yourself dealing with it in complete ease. Ease, as there is no failure! 'Impossible' becomes a choice of possibilities in many different ways.
When I mentioned "creative mind", shortly after I found Ernest ShurtleffHolmes's writing on this site, which is extremely interesting. It will take some time to read it all, so can't even say that it represents, or not, my opinions. I need to finish it first. But so far, it has already touched me with many 'signs'. What makes it even more intriguing, is that it was written in 1923!
So here's to creative thinking.
My creative mind has brought me the experience of finding the first missing pieces of this complicated but beautiful puzzle. They fit precisely, they link perfectly. And they inspire me to start searching for the rest.
To love for the sake of being loved is human, but to love for the sake of loving is angelic. --Alphonse deLamartine--
"Do you have Lenny's "Believe in me?"" she asked him, when he was looking for some music on his PC. She stood behind him, and looking at his back, she couldn't resist leaning against him, feeling the warmth of his body.
He didn't have it, which was a shame really. It would have perfectly suited the moment. How perfectly 'perfect' it would have been, she only realised later.
It took her a while to grab herself back together again, but she managed. It was rewarding in the end. She had the feeling they both were able to do better this time. She believed in him and that also meant that she had to allow herself to trust that he believed in her too.
Desires, wishes, needs. They all deserve a different approach sometimes and in a way she was proud of discovering that. All you need to start is to believe in yourself. When you do this, you can honestly say out loud: Believe in me. And what follows is that the one you say it out loud to, instantly feels that you believe in him/her too. Call it a circle of trust.
She knew it wasn't always going to be easy; it may take a long time before discovering, via accepting and trying, ends up in achieving. But she had the will to try and the first attempt was succesful.
Thank God he didn't have Lenny's "Believe in me" though. She would have failed miserably if he did.
