Take It Easy with Decisions

Relax
There is an answer to the darkest times.
It’s clear we don’t understand but the last thing on my mind
Is to leave you.
I believe that we’re in this together.
Don’t scream – there are so many roads left.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.

(this week's Sunday Scribblings)

Decisions.... how I hate them. Though I try to make sure that most of the time people think that I am the type that "knows what she wants", "goes for it" and all that stuff, the opposite is quite often more the case.

Well, it's not really that I don't know what I want and/or don't go for whatever "it" is... it's just that my lack of self confidence now and again wins and that's when the doubting hits me. Panic, worries, questions and lots of "what if's" fill my head and if I'm not careful I start playing hide and seek. Unfortunately, I'm very good in hiding....

I started to think what kind of positive twist I could give to this hiding business. I know I should try to fight this seemingly instant reaction (stop hiding, face the music, deal with it!) but that's easier said then done and knowing me, it will sometimes be too much to ask from myself. So why won't I take little steps at the time and have more chance of 'success'? The good thing about hiding is that you can allow yourself to take a look at yourself and the situation you're in, without having this feeling of pressure that you have to handle it right there and then, and oh by the way, don't make any mistakes!!

So I hide, take a step back and....

relax, take it easy.... all is so much different when you give yourself the opportunity to see where you are and what you're in without letting stress overtake the important moments of your life.

Mika has it right with his latest song, don't you think? Hey, I might even start appreciating the fact that I have the chance of making decisions...

J

Why don't you like me??!

Can't believe I didn't post this one before... from the moment I first heard it, it has given me the shivers; it is just so good. Not to mention Mika himself, I mean, look at him. I'm sure he had other reasons but it's fairly obvious to me why he named the song 'Grace Kelly' instead of something like 'Why don't you like me', which is one of the repetitive lines in the lyrics.
'Cause, hey, I like him! Find it hard to believe that there's someone who wouldn't like him, to be honest.

Which is rubbish of course. Everybody has at least one (or more) person in daily life who doesn't like him/her. And don't we all know somebody whom we don't particularly like? It's natural, normal and ok. What isn't ok is that some of us (me, for example...) go out of our way to try to be liked. Even when we should know better. Even though we know it doesn't work like that.

Nobody really wants to beg around, just for the "Ah, great! They like me!" - feeling. It actually means that they dislike the real person you are, but if you adjust, reshape and compromise yourself a bit (or more) here and there, you might just have a chance that they do like you. And that is rubbish too.

These people are not worth it. No matter how much you like them, you cannot change the way they look at you. The only thing you can do, is to be yourself. And that you're damn proud of who you are too. Easier said than done, but if worse comes to worst, you can always try to be like Mika.

J

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!